Those of you that know me know that with me with it rains it pours as far as bad things happening in my life. Recently I had quite the health scare when I wound up in ICU with a blood sugar of 920. Apparently I’d been walking around for months with a dangerously high blood sugar and didn’t know it. I hadn’t been feeling good and have been going to my doctor but we just didn’t put things together and realize I had diabetes. By the time I was hospitalized my liver and kidneys were failing and my heart was being affected by the electrolyte imbalance that the diabetes was causing. It was pretty hard getting hit with the diagnosis although I knew that I would probably have diabetes later in life because both my parents had it.
It’s been about 5 weeks now since I was dismissed from the hospital and I’m still having a real hard time coming to grips with the fact that I have another chronic disease to add to my already pain in the butt health conditions. I’ve been fighting depression pretty hard but the survival instinct that has kept me alive and fighting for all this years seems to be intact and still functioning quite well.
I admit I’ve been thinking a lot about life and death. What happens after we die and when the quality of your life just seems to not be worth the quantity. I’ve found the more I think about these things the more questions I come up with it seems. Living and dying is a very personal thing. While in the hospital I admit I thought I didn’t have a choice about whether I was going to live and die. The weird thing about it was that I wasn’t all that scared of dying because I am a firm believer that there is another life after death but the timing all seemed wrong. I was too young and I still had too many things to do yet. Looking at it from a better perspective now I’m not as worried about dying although I know that I will have to take care of myself more carefully now if I don’t want to wind up that way. You just never know what is going to be around the corner and it is more imperative to me then ever to live each to day to its fullest.
Kay's an adult survivor of severe child abuse. She is a retired RN who was diagnosed with MPD/DID, PTSD, depression,diabetes, trigeminal neuralgia, narcolepsy and chronic pain disorders (a complication from child abuse). She retired from nursing in 1990 and now works at home. She has excellent doctors and with some help she enjoys a good life.
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About Me
- Kay L. Schlagel
- I was only 22 at the time I wrote this book. It took alot of time and healing to finally publish it. I wasn't cured. Unfortunately it's never quite that simple in the real world. It definitely changed my life for the better and set me on a path of self-discovery. Alot has changed since then with finding more alters,with more memories..etc. They are all amazing and they are all uniquely a part of me. Some painted self-portraits of themselves. It really was and is the journey that makes the goal worthwhile. I write children's fiction and am working on my 7TH book. I freelance self-help articles on health topics and have sold and won a few awards for my poetry. I'm a moderator at publisher database forums for writers who wish to become professional writers. I'm a professional artist. I am proficient in oils,acrylics, and some digital painting programs. I can honestly say at the age of 46 I am the most content and happy with my life than I have ever been. I'm always anxious to see what lies around the next corner.
Links
My art can be seen at wwww.artwanted.com/mdmkay and it will soon be available through our gallery at www.jdkimports.com. If you find a print that you are interested in purchasing there is contact information on both sites.