The past. Its shadow still possesses me,
Like prison of memories, it surrounds me.
My spirit’s cold, my body weak.
I pine for love I dare not seek.
My world is one of pain and distrust
To protect my armor is a must.
For many seek to destroy us still.
Our memory to blank, our spirits to kill.
The blood of many, stains my past.
Has the time to be free come at last?
Many are the faces that hide behind my shield.
The pain of their memories, never to be revealed.
Dare I tell them their journey has begun?
To come from the darkness into the sun.
Can I tell them that the past is done?
The power of truth at last has come.
I fear to tell them. What will they reply?
They've journeyed that road before and fear that I lie.
I plea to put the past to rest before it's too late.
To continue forward, not hesitate.
To believe the path of tomorrow, is not one of sorrow.
But only by facing the past together can we follow.
Memories of the past must be complete.
The mistakes that were made; never to repeat.
Together we fight as the knights of old.
Courageous, relentless, strong and bold.
The memories and pain released from our soul.
The bonds of the past will lose their hold.
By Kay L. Schlagel
Kay's an adult survivor of severe child abuse. She is a retired RN who was diagnosed with MPD/DID, PTSD, depression,diabetes, trigeminal neuralgia, narcolepsy and chronic pain disorders (a complication from child abuse). She retired from nursing in 1990 and now works at home. She has excellent doctors and with some help she enjoys a good life.
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About Me
- Kay L. Schlagel
- I was only 22 at the time I wrote this book. It took alot of time and healing to finally publish it. I wasn't cured. Unfortunately it's never quite that simple in the real world. It definitely changed my life for the better and set me on a path of self-discovery. Alot has changed since then with finding more alters,with more memories..etc. They are all amazing and they are all uniquely a part of me. Some painted self-portraits of themselves. It really was and is the journey that makes the goal worthwhile. I write children's fiction and am working on my 7TH book. I freelance self-help articles on health topics and have sold and won a few awards for my poetry. I'm a moderator at publisher database forums for writers who wish to become professional writers. I'm a professional artist. I am proficient in oils,acrylics, and some digital painting programs. I can honestly say at the age of 46 I am the most content and happy with my life than I have ever been. I'm always anxious to see what lies around the next corner.
Links
My art can be seen at wwww.artwanted.com/mdmkay and it will soon be available through our gallery at www.jdkimports.com. If you find a print that you are interested in purchasing there is contact information on both sites.